Kaz Motorcycle Crash

This scene was not prewritten, and has been painstakingly transcribed by Wei and edited by Ren

It was the best feeling I'd ever had in my life. Nothing else has ever compared to it. We'd gotten news that the safehouse we were waiting out at was gonna get raided. It was kinda sudden. I had been up for I think 36 hours, sort of on hold, and the only thing to do in those days to keep yourself awake, to keep moving... my poison of choice was cocaine, so. I wasn't sober, and at the time I thought it made me a better driver. Made my reaction time faster. It didn't. But boy it felt fucking incredible. I got out of there with just enough time to spare. Cops were pulling up as i sped out. One of them chased me but they couldn't keep up because I was better than them. I felt better than them. I felt higher than I'd ever been in my life. I felt like a fucking god. I left them in the dust because nothing they could ever do would compare to what I was capable of. I was reacting to things before they happened, I was speeding along an empty freeway, any pursuers left far behind. But I was still going hundreds of miles an hour. And I wasn't slowing down. Everything was so... beautiful. And giddy. I felt the wind in my hair, I wasn't good about wearing safety gear back then. I was just in jeans and a t-shirt. I felt like a god. Till I didn't. I didn't even see the barrier coming. It was like, the whole time, I thought I was seeing everything, but I... I wasn't. I wasn't. I was so... cocky. I was so stupid. I crashed directly into it and suddenly I was flying through the air, and then I felt the worse pain I have ever felt in my life. It felt like an entire half of my body was on fire. I felt the gravel grinding against my knees and it wasn't until later that I realized it wasn't pieces of rock... it was my exposed kneecap. The pain of a motorcycle crash like that is bad. But it's even worse if you've been doing so many drugs that your brain doesn't have any endorphins or dopamine left to give you to help you power through it. A cocaine crash is one of the most depressing, horrific feelings in the world. It... it almost makes it not worth it. That's why most people drink or take some benzos to level out afterwards. They just go to sleep so they don't have to feel anything. Both of those experiences at once was... hell. And it took a while just lying there on the pavement.